Monday, August 25, 2008

Cold Turkey

These are my friends.

I've never been what I would call a caffeine addict. The things that ramp people up, don't affect me much (B Vitamins, caffeine, energy drinks). I still consume them on occasion, but not for a "high". I've been known to go months without any. As of late I have noticed a large spike in my caffeine consumption and an over all increase in fatigue. I have 3 ideas as to what is wrong. Either I'm drinking way too much caffeine (yesterday 3 DP's, 2 cups of coffee and 2 rounds of an energy spray), or my thyroid is jacked again, or both. I've never been more then a 1-2 caffeinated beverages a day type person (when I have it at all). I'm not sure what's up. While I was pregnant with Jackson I had hyperthyroidism and was diagnosed with Graves Disease. It's been in remission since he was born. I'm off for my physical an yearly blood work up Friday. Hopefully if the problem is larger like my thyroid we'll find out. Regardless, I'm giving up the caffeine cold turkey for at least a month.

It's a shame, I have a new container of coffee and almost a full 24 pack of Dr. Pepper. *Sigh* It will be torment.

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Okay, my over emotional rantings are over.

Back to your regularly scheduled program.

Okay, here's the current run down. We went to the optometrist yesterday. Her first 3 issues are that she is far sighted, has tracking issues on top of the spacial issues. Glasses are on order. Friday we begin a 10 week therapy with Debbie, Jackson's speech therapist, who had a severely dyslexic son. I also ordered a new curriculum for 1st grade for my 3rd grader for Language Arts only. Things aren't moving as fast as I would like, but the answers are coming.

This book has been great and I like this method of treatment.

Thursday, August 07, 2008

Feelings of Failure (UPDATED)

I love my kids, they are bright, energetic and funny. Right now I'm feeling like I've failed V. I have suspected for a little over a year that she might be dyslexic. I thought I would give it one more year (2nd grade) and I would see what I could do. The results were nothing. I had a friend who teaches come over and run a reading assessment with her yesterday and it really looks like she may be. It wasn't complete enough to be conclusive for that, but it was for her reading level (early 1st grade). This girl is a math wiz and she can't read. I have to help her read her word problems and then read them aloud for her to comprehend.

Why did I wait another year? So I could drill Sargent the right skills into her? So I could prove it was just inattentiveness?

I need to start a new school year and I'm not even sure what to do for her. I'm waiting on a call from the pediatrician for where to take her for a full evaluation. I just hope I don't screw this up too. I'm scared.


I was very emotional when I first wrote this. I'm still feeling emotional, those feelings are very real and clear. I just don't like being emotional. I must admit that I envy some of the genetic make-up of men. For the most part (there are always exceptions) men are logical as opposed to the emotional female (also exceptions are found). These are generalizations some people don't like, but it's life.

Right now I just don't have enough information. The calls I've made aren't producing fast enough solutions or information. Basically I'm in limbo and I'm wanting to act on the problem and I have no idea how. I don't know the severity of the problem. It's just enough to make me a basket case when I mix it with the mess that the house is in and the things I have to do.

I'll be back to my perky obnoxious self soon, right now I just need clarity.

Tuesday, August 05, 2008

I'm home.

It's like we just moved again. There is much to unpack and be done. Our A/C was out so it was 90 degrees in the house when we got home. It was better the the 106 in the field. It was fixed yesterday (Thanks Pam!). I have much to say and not nearly enough pictures.

Alas, I have work to do so a bigger post must wait.